What was really at stake was that none of my ‘hemi’ spheres were tangible. Neither the ‘outer’ nor the ‘inner’ world. leaving the ‘present’ of ‘me’ with abundant visions, thoughts, and concepts. The ‘outer’ sphere was merely hopes and aspirations to be accepted and not noticed because you look different. Whereas the ‘inner’ world was only memories with not any actual physical object belonging/ed to the past, to hold.
In order to make my ‘inner’ world tangible, I asked my best friend to send me my family photos, paintings and sketch books which she promised to keep them for me. I missed my sketch books and wanted to regain the possession of some of my scattered belongings.
To touch the gone past, I started sewing my past with my present by drawing and painting family pictures and other objects that I had. That gave birth to a new part of me. It was not the ‘unification of my two worlds’ as I wishes for, instead, I acquainted another skill: Navigation between my ‘inner’ and ‘outer’ worlds.